God's best:)

was really touched when Sher offered to come pray for me for my jap ppr in e afternoon..esp since i think she wanted to study ard sch..but she went bk hall instead so can b nearer to SRC where i was havin my ppr:)

jap was more diff than i expected but do-able..quite abit fr past yr pprs..but compre was difficult..compo din really haf time to fine tune it..quite a rush job..oh well..how to finish compre,vocab,grammar,zhao ju, compo all in 2.5 hrs?!madness!

met meiyun aft e ppr n headed for ny supermart to get sum stuff..esp my bread!!=pheh..it was grt time spent w her..bought an icecream(Cravio's hazelnut bar which i loved when i was young)..kinda wanted to reminisce those younger days=p

ctned watchg qing ding ai qing hai..sad endg..but not too bad..i kinda pei fu the scriptwriter cos he managed to show 2perspectives of love..it all evolved ard the theme "Plato's eternity"..but yar..the 2 supportg characters really gave depth to the show w their contrast in their love..1 so crazy to the extent she killed the guy she loved, the other so madly in love he kept all e things he did for the girl he loved a secret..not expectg any returns but continually being by her side,supportg her n caring for her..

it's quite amazing how e scriptwriter developed the supportg characters so well..but quite sad the protagonists roles n inner thots werent as well developed..in fact when the supportg actor was gg to die, i really cried lol!i was thinkg in e show..most women wld choose a man they love n not the man who loves them..y??i dunno..perhaps it's a woman's natural instinct?of cos there r also cases where they choose a man who loves them more..sumhow it's quite true it's difficult to find a couple w the same amt of balance of love they contribute to the r/ship..

was also thinkg tt if my life was made into a show, how wld it b lyk?wld it b as colourful as the ones i've watched on screen??u noe..sumtimes i'l wonder abt the guys who were aft me..their inner thots..n sumtimes i'l feel guilty abt the hurt which i may haf caused them..i am not in their shoes so i dun feel for them yet when i watch a show, i can put myself in e characters' shoes n feel for them..quite ironic huh??yea..so in a way i wld actually love to c a film abt my life..how issit lyk?were there missed opportunities?were there instances where you yuan wu fen?heh..

also thot abt my past r/ship..sumhow it juz struck me as i watched e show tt i may not haf been as upset over the failed r/ship as i was over my failed frenship w my ex..to put it simply..e failed r/ship may haf impacted me in many ways..esp since it was my 1st..n i spent days, weeks, months crying n trying to get over it..but yet when i think bk..perhaps it's not so much the r/ship but the lost frenship i was crying over..it's really sad to face someone u once loved n was so close to as an acquaintance..esp if tt person was once ur v gd fren..e times i shared w him as a fren far surpasses e time i shared w him as a gf..n since it was long-dist, we din really get a chance to go out as a couple either..so yea..retrospectively speaking, i think i missed our frenship more than anythg..e mutual understandg, e encouragements, our thots n ideals..sadly, our frenship now lies in ruins fr yrs o neglect..do wan to mend it but havent found e courage to tk tt first step..

yea..bein in self-denial for the past 3 yrs doesnt help..i juz wanna start the whole frenship afresh..e hurts n scars r still there but it's mendg..perhaps it wun b as perfect as b4..but i really do hope to b able to face him as b4..askg him how he has been..whether he has a gf already?if he has..gd for him..i'l give him my blessings..it's been a long while..let's forget n move on..i dowan to mourn over my lost love or lost frenship..cos i noe tt i still treasure tt frenship we once shared..n i noe tt God has shown me a whole new chapter aft our breakup..it's juz 1 of those things we hafta go thru in life..n i noe the Lord has grter plans in store for me..heh..God's best..not 2nd best:)