thots on backsliding..

Food for thought..

Why issit tt ppl backslide??Havent they tasted the gdness of God's fruits n righteousness b4??

I was thinkg to myself juz now..hav i ever told God i wanted to quit following Him??In fact i realise tt i've done tt many times b4..juz tt mayb in the recent yr or 2 i've ceased doin so..

So y did i ever haf such a thot of giving up?it was when things din seem to go my way n my emotions were hitting rock-bottom..tt was when i asked God y HE wasnt there for me?Y din HE ans my prayers??

As i look bk at how foolish i was then..i c the weakest link btw me n God--EMOTIONS..true..they r intangible..but tt's precisely y we r so affected by them..Satan mks use of our emotions to distance us fr God..it's not tt God isnt there for us..neither is it cos HE doesnt ans our prayers..it's juz tt we're always so bogged down by our own emotions(n self-centredness) tt we fail2c tt amidst everythg, God has always been by our side supporting us..

Aft so many ups n downs in my life..disappointments, crushing news, changes..i realise tt at the moment when sth bad happens n we're totally helpless, we tend to blame God for our predicament n ask Him y He has forsaken us..but aft the whole thing when we look bk, i realise tt He has already ans my prayers during the time i was wallowing in self-pity n blaming Him..so stubborn in my view tt He has forsaken me tt i've failed to c His grace upon mi..haha..of cos i may still b stubborn enuff to reject the fact tt He has ans my prayers n tt everythg has gone bk to normal cos of His grace..n tt's prob y ppl backslide--cos they've closed their hearts to the fact tt God is always there for them..instead, they rather believe tt fate is in their own hands..

When u think that God is far away fr u n not by ur side, tt is when God is actually the closest to u..as long as u r willing to humble urself, open ur heart n ask Him for help, He'l definitely do so!

God's promises:
"If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it."~John 14:14
"I will not leave you comfortless:I will come to you."~John 14:18

I guess it's normal to feel disillusioned sometimes esp when we've hit rock bottom n it seems as tho there's no 1 there for u..aft all we're humans n r emotional ppl..sumtimes it's juz Satan trying to draw me away fr God, sumtimes it's juz a test fr God to force me to grow..but sumhow now tt i've matured in my walk w Him n tasted His goodness, I can confidently say tt i'l NOT turn away fr Him..

"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves--it is the gift of God--not by works, so tt no1 can boast"~Eph 2:8-9

God has actually given us a gift of faith n grace so actually if we juz use them, we'l b saved:) it is God's gift to us n not by our own deeds!wat's preventing those who have backslided to go bk to Him?the disappointment n hurt once faced?by who?Ppl in church?or God?I noe of a few ppl who backslided cos of persecution fr church..but wat did God say in the Bible?

"In fact everyone who wans to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will b persecuted, while evil men will go from bad to worse,deceiving and being deceived."2Tim 3:12-13

So God has already known tt we wld b persecuted as Christians..as long as we're living in the world..who ever said all church ppl r holy?if we turn away fr God cos of Man n their persecution, then we're quite stupid arent we?cos God has already warned us this will happen..n 100% of the time it's not cos tt person who persecuted u is evil but becos Satan has made use of him!so it's actually Satan who's persecuting u!!!haha..isnt it ironic?!

n get it rt..God doesnt disappoint!in fact most of the time it's cos we turn our backs to Him tt's y it seems lyk He's nvr ard..but if we actually turn ard He's rt there w His arms wide open!:)n come to think of it, i think we disappoint Him alot of times lol!

another thot i was thinkg was abt our parents..y did they decide to hav us?for fun?to tk care of them when they're old?i was doin the sums n the thing is we can nvr repay our parents wat they've given us in monetary terms!for eg. our parents give us pocket $ till we end uni ard 21,22..not forgetting the amt they spend on us b4 we were even born!haha..on baby pdts n checkups=pbut how many more yrs can they live?mayb another 10+,20 yrs?so actually if they had us so tt they'l get more benefits, i think they'l b better saving tt money for their retirement!think of how much they'l save manz?!so my conclusion is they had us to love us..to have sth to care for..(i'm referring to majority of the parents in Sg here lah)

likewise w God..He din create us cos He wanted sum1 to tk care of Him..He created us to love us..when we're naughty, He'l b upset, when we're gd n listen to Him, He'l b pleased..everythg we hav comes fr Him--our lives, wat we wear,wat we eat etc..so how can it b tt God isnt there for us when He din ans ur prayers in the way u wan?!

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, n yet ur heavenly Father feeds them. Are u not much more valuable than they?"Matt 6:26

so to those who r feel disillusioned n helpless n hav no1 to turn to..go bk to the Lord..dun feel guilty or tt He'l ignore u..repent n seek His forgiveness cos He's a merciful God n He'l gladly tk u bk into His embrace once again..Let's ctn to back in the joy of knowing Him yar?bros n sisters!heh..jiayou!!!:)